Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
Showing posts with label meditation. Show all posts
the story behind the spider
9/12/13
Some years ago when I quit my hospital job my
life changed in ways I´ve never dreamed …or yes I dream it and it became truth.
Had spent more or less six months since I quit
and that morning I woke up with something between my eyes, something that
itches a bit.
I started my day as always but in the afternoon
the itch started to bother more and more, and my forehead started to swell so I
went to a mirror and I realized something had bite me…but what?
I live in an apartment, seventh floor…no
garden, just a couple of plant pots in my terrace.
So I started to dig into my memory…some days
ago I saw a little spider in the corner of my room near my bed.
I call a friend who´s also a doctor in medicine
and he prescribe me some ATB and antihistamine, the day after I was a monster,
literally, my face swelled and my forehead itched more and more!
All my family and friends were concerned, my
mom wanted to start a spider hunting…
that´s me and my older nephew by that time
here you can see the bite almost healed...yes it was nasty
Me? I was in some kind of slow motion
mode...observing, witnessing.
The bite was in the exact middle of my forehead,
right where the third eye lie.
By that time I was playing concerts (yes, I´m a
singer, you can listen my cd here) and I always place a bindu in that exact
place.
A bindu is a rhinestone you put to point the
third eye, you get what I`m talking about ;-)
How could that possible be a casualty?
And some way in the middle of this process I
understood what the spider bite was showing me:
“Go back to the center, focus on what´s
important, don´t forget me…you´re never alone”
It took me more than a month to heal that bite
and I have a scar left so I never used my bindu again, a spider gave me one I will
never forget and I´m grateful for her service.
the scar today
And I didn´t allow my mom to hung or kill any
spider, and they never bite me again ;-)
My last three days have been complicated, every
time something big is coming to my life my sleeping rhythm turns irregular and turns my life upside down, believe me…that´s
not fun.
Yesterday while I was drawing this Animal
Mandala for September I realized I was drawing my own story, that little spider
keeps telling me where to focus…
She whispers…go back to the center my sweet
girl, you´re not alone, you can do this.
Finally last night I slept like a baby :-)
Have a bright day my dears, we are not alone
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book your spot before September 20 and save some money
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an ancient wisdom lives within me..
1/30/13
before moving forward to our next Totem Animal I want to share with you why sea turtles are so meaningful in my life and why this animal was the signal of something new in the horizon...
A few years ago when I startet teaching Mandalas and Meditation I had to learn how to lead people into a meditation...I was very concerned about this and had lots of questions on mymind...what if my voice isn´t gentle and disturb people, what if the relaxation was to fast, or to slow? what if, what if...there was so much roaming in my errant mind I was loosing focus, my focus.
One morning a good friend called, she leads great meditations so I talked to her about my concerns and she gave me the key, she asked me: do you do the meditation while you lead it? obviously I wasn´t...
I thought speaking at the same time I go on with the process wouldn`t be able but it was, I needed two or three classes to get used to it but it worth it.
Meditating with a group of people is very differenet than doing it alone, the arising energy of the group always makes your own meditation more powerful and intense.
With every class I feelt more confortable and aligned with my purpous and work within the group.
My meditations has mostly three stages well define, a relaxation, a visualization which ends in releasing your mind and follow your own inner view.
I never prepair anything for the visualization stage, sometimes I lead the group to the sea, others to the mountains or to their inner tree...I just flow with the energy of the moment.
One morning I started the relaxation and the images lead me and the gruop to the ocean, a deep ocean, blue, with cristaline waters...once I lead the group there I release them, and me to go where ever the mind leads us.
I started swiming, amazed for the inner silence that deep ocean took me in...and then it happened, I saw a sea turtle, huge! magnificient! you can realize it was a very ancient and wisdom animal, her energy was so gentle...she moves slowly and secure, so beautiful!
For one second to another the turtle was swimming fast showing me the beauty of the immense ocean where she lives.
Suddenly I realized I lost the turtle from my view she was there, I could feel her but couldn`t see it...I look arround just to realize that the turtle was me!... I could see how my hands weren´t hands any more they where the turtle legs, and my nose was her pic...I felt beyond words FREE, beyond words happy and in my domain, I feel back in home.
It was so hard to come back to the Earth again...but the glance of that moment is always in me because I know her power lives in me.
After that she came to me in other ways, many ways, many times, she comes in dreams, in signals...I call her and she came to me through Jay`s beautiful art, and all this became a challenge which is leading me beyond expected.
A few years ago when I startet teaching Mandalas and Meditation I had to learn how to lead people into a meditation...I was very concerned about this and had lots of questions on mymind...what if my voice isn´t gentle and disturb people, what if the relaxation was to fast, or to slow? what if, what if...there was so much roaming in my errant mind I was loosing focus, my focus.
One morning a good friend called, she leads great meditations so I talked to her about my concerns and she gave me the key, she asked me: do you do the meditation while you lead it? obviously I wasn´t...
I thought speaking at the same time I go on with the process wouldn`t be able but it was, I needed two or three classes to get used to it but it worth it.
Meditating with a group of people is very differenet than doing it alone, the arising energy of the group always makes your own meditation more powerful and intense.
With every class I feelt more confortable and aligned with my purpous and work within the group.
My meditations has mostly three stages well define, a relaxation, a visualization which ends in releasing your mind and follow your own inner view.
I never prepair anything for the visualization stage, sometimes I lead the group to the sea, others to the mountains or to their inner tree...I just flow with the energy of the moment.
One morning I started the relaxation and the images lead me and the gruop to the ocean, a deep ocean, blue, with cristaline waters...once I lead the group there I release them, and me to go where ever the mind leads us.
I started swiming, amazed for the inner silence that deep ocean took me in...and then it happened, I saw a sea turtle, huge! magnificient! you can realize it was a very ancient and wisdom animal, her energy was so gentle...she moves slowly and secure, so beautiful!
For one second to another the turtle was swimming fast showing me the beauty of the immense ocean where she lives.
Suddenly I realized I lost the turtle from my view she was there, I could feel her but couldn`t see it...I look arround just to realize that the turtle was me!... I could see how my hands weren´t hands any more they where the turtle legs, and my nose was her pic...I felt beyond words FREE, beyond words happy and in my domain, I feel back in home.
It was so hard to come back to the Earth again...but the glance of that moment is always in me because I know her power lives in me.
After that she came to me in other ways, many ways, many times, she comes in dreams, in signals...I call her and she came to me through Jay`s beautiful art, and all this became a challenge which is leading me beyond expected.
I listen to the call and I`m spreading the power of her love.
Love and light for your souls
♥Guada♥
Thank you, thank you, thank you...
6/25/12
I realized I need something that reminds me to be thankful every day when I wake up.
This piece was inspired on the first scene of Ambition to Meaning, Wyane Dyer´s film.
Thank you, thank you, thank you...
♥ Guada ♥
This week is my Life Book lesson!
I´ll be teaching you how to do this Eagle Shaman + an Eagle Meditation audio
+ Extra video to show you how I paint flowers in my art :)
You can´t miss it!
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